Hidden Muse

Dimensions-

Framed on a 300 gsm A3 paper 

• Millimetres: 297x420 mm

• Centimetres: 29.7x42 cm

• Inches: 11.7x16.5 inches

I thought I was painting out of anger.

It had been a brutal day at work, another long, heavy week, and I didn’t choose colours so much as throw them onto the paper. Whatever shade echoed how I felt in that moment, I let it spill. I truly believed I was angry.

Or maybe… it wasn’t the anger of the work load. Maybe it was something deeper. A colour I was craving without realising it.

When I stepped back, it hit me. This wasn’t rage. This was my love palette. The same colours I once used in a piece inspired entirely by my love, my muse. The exact hues, the exact warmths and shadows. I hadn’t noticed it at all. Not until a friend pointed out that every shade was identical to that painting.

Now, looking at it with clearer eyes,

I understand. I wasn’t angry at the day. I wasn’t angry at the week. I was angry because I didn’t come home to my heart.